Please tell me i'm living in the twilight zone

it's been a while since i've blogged and i have to admit it's because my heart is heavy. i just cannot get 2 things out of my mind:

1. trayvon martin

2. amandla stenberg and the hunger games

the injustice and racism of it all makes me sad and angry. it bothers me. i want to scream at the top of my lungs about how fucked up our society truly is and how disturbed i feel about the whole thing. it makes me sick. and it should make you feel sick as well.

a young black teenager is shot and no one is held responsible or charged.

a movie (based on a book) is released and people are "surprised/angry/upset" that a character is not white, even though the book clearly states that she has dark brown skin.

seriously?

i wish someone would tell me that i am living in the twilight zone right now because i'm not understanding how it is 2012 and this is really our reality. what bothers me more is the fact that these are both young people we are talking about. young people. what kind of damage is this doing to other young people in this country? what are the messages that are being spread? how is any of this acceptable?!

i fear for the children of my friends, plus all of our future children (if/when we all have children). will we ever live in a time where the color of our skin does not impact the generalizations people make about us? will non-white characters be valued as much as their white counterparts? will we ever be equal?

i worry that the answers to all of these questions, thoughts and ideas in my head will forever be "no." but i am (and will always need to be) optimistic - otherwise i will make myself crazy or never have children of my own. i know that i tend to think "kumbaya - we're all equal - let's celebrate our differences and accept each other as humans" but i have to believe that this is possible. i still hope that one day i will not cry over another young person senselessly shot or feel upset about the nasty and negative things people say about a character in a book because of the color of her skin (btw - if you really thought that about rue, then your reading comprehension is off). 

i still hope to one day not worry about racial injustice and its repercussions.

i don't even care how idealistic that sounds. 

some articles/blogs you should read (because i'm not all that articulate when i'm upset and think there are a lot of other people who are):

racist hunger games fans are very disappointed

i see white people: hunger games and a brief history of cultural whitewashing

racist tweets from "fans" of the hunger games...

walking while black: the killing of trayvon martin

the value of a black male life in america

what happens after the hoodies?

gonslaves: what do i tell my son?

day to night

apparently my signature look is a blazer and some flat boots since that's what happened today.

my day look (for a quick run to target and applebee's with the fam):

 that blazer is my fav. the shirt is from h&m, jeggings are levi's.

and night to celebrate my girl's bday:

 black blazer, AA dress (you can't really see it but it's there)

anyway, on my way out. have a great weekend!

is it a blazer or a sweater?

my sis gave me this awesome sweater blazer thing i wore today and i am completely IN LOVE with it. it's warm, comfy and just so cool.

outfit details: dress - f21, sweater blazer thing - my sis 

my allergies must be kinda weird because i have been living in a fog for a week. hence, why i look so funny. lol.

and one more pic for fun of me with the puppy. it's been a minute since i've posted a pic of her!

it's a beautiful day...

...in the neighborhood!

nyc in spring makes me smile so hard. although allergies suck, it makes me happy that the weather starts to warm up and the sun stays out longer. i've actually already attended my first bbq of the year and i'm looking forward to MORE bbq's this year!

outfit details: dress and boots - UO, my awesome new watch - present from my mom!

i know it's been a few days since i've blogged and that makes me sad because i've worn a lot of cute outfits! things have just been a little crazyyyyy. ekk.

the shoes make the outfit

what a beautifullllllllllllllllllllll day in the neighborhood (aka - NYC)! i wish i had time to spend outdoors during lunch today but, alas, it was not meant to be. tomorrow is supposed to be equally as beautiful so i will make sure to get some of that vitamin D.

outfit details: skirt - f21, sweater - gap, shirt - AA, boots - my sis gave them to me!

these boots are amazing. my sis was nice enough to pass them along to me because her hubby bought her a similar pair for vday. so she'll probably be posting this outfit on her own blog, which means you should hop on over there and check it out.

yawn

i yawned about 14 times when i went to take these pics tonight. i'm not sure why i'm so damn tired. it's only monday!

outfit details: skirt and eyeglass necklace - f21, belt - target, sweater - old navy

to clear up what i said yesterday about pinterest, i've been reading some interesting articles about legalities and content on pinterest. as much as i love the site, i'm thinking about shutting mine down due to this article i read. i'm really bummed about it and haven't logged into my account in a few days. i don't want to have to shut it down, but i would be really upset if i was sued. thoughts? suggestions? help!

inspiration

lately on pinterest:

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Source: swaggernewyork.com via missDTM on Pinterest

Source: thesartorialist.com via missDTM on Pinterest

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i'm actually debating whether or not i should shut down my account. too many legalities to worry about.

cuff it up

i'm not sure why i say things like, "i'm giving up shopping for lent!" not only did i order so many things before making that promise to myself that i have stuff STILL coming to me via mail, but my sister gave me 5 pairs of shoes and a new skirt at her house today.

yea, that's my life.

outfit details: denim shirt and playboy bunny earring - my dad's, belt - target, jeggings - levi's, cuff earring - h&m, boots - modcloth (my sis bought them for me)

i've had an insane obsession with ear cuffs lately and i was happy when i snagged this one from the h&m by my job right before lent. i really want a large cuff for my upper ear but i'll have to wait and purchase that after easter. i guess that gives me time to find the perfect one...?